somewhere only we know

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

keane.

Friday, August 11, 2006

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10:25 PM

Thursday, August 10, 2006

BLIND
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this while
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

-Lifehouse


songs reflect how we feel.
that's why its always so real.
and sometimes i wonder if you knew?
a part of me died when i let you go..
As for your answer, i'll never know

10:00 PM

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

THE THINGS WE MISSED OUT ON..

"It's so hard to look back now
And see all those things I missed"


yawwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwnnn....
im stuck in the school library with boredom. and alot of PW stuff to do/
while everyone else are having outside! in the SUN! im freeeezing in the cold library, typing my entry with my numbed fingers.
anddddd while FREAKIN SHARAVANA RAMA is somewhere out there playing soccer, we, his lovely hardworking group members, are working our ass out to complete our PW. screw yoooouuuu!!!!!! *(>.<)* the things we miss out on--are rd missed out on. like sleep. i need to sleep. like now. i need to sleep. my beauty sleep. aaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh \(>@<)/

flag day started out good!! i saw himmmm and that was all the good. i read the blog. (T_T) makes one wonder how it would've been to be the lucky one. im never that lucky. lol i still believe single is heaven. no commitments!! haha tiar and bao would agree on this.

okay off to more PW. and hopefull aft that, some sleeeeeeppp!!


"Sitting at home
All by myself
Thinking of things I never did"

4:09 PM

Monday, August 07, 2006

X JAPAN

mou hitori de arukenai
toki no kaze ga tsuyosugite
Ah kizutsuku koto nante
nareta kazu dakedo ima wa...

I can't walk any further alone
The winds of time are too strong
Ah There were so many times
I was hurt but now...


Ah kono mama dakishimete
fureta mama no kokoro o
kawaritsuzukeru kono toki ni
kawaranai ai ga aru nara

Ah Hold me like this
Hold my trembling heart
In this continually changing time
If there's a never-changing love


Will you hold my heart
namida uketomete
mou kowaresou na All my heart

Will you hold my heart
And catch my tears
It seems I've already broken down All my heart


Forever Love Forever Dream
afureru omoi dake ga
hageshiku setsunaku jikan o umetsukusu
Oh Tell me why

Forever Love Forever Dream
Only the overflowing memories are
Furiously, painfully stopping up time
Oh Tell me why


All I see is blue in my heart


Will you stay with me
kaze ga sugisaru made
mata afuredasu All my tears

Will you stay with me
Until the wind has passed by
They're still overflowing All my tears


Forever Love Forever Dream
kono mama soba ni ite
yoake ni furueru kokoro o dakishimete
Oh Stay with me

Forever Love Forever Dream
Stay close like this
In the dawn, embrace my trembling heart
Oh Stay with me


Ah subete ga owareba ii
owari no nai kono yoru ni
Ah ushinau mono nante
nanimonai anata dake

Ah Everything should end
In this endless night
Ah What have I lost
Nothing Only you


Forever Love Forever Dream
kono mama soba ni ite
yoake ni furueru kokoro o dakishimete

Forever Love Forever Dream
Stay close like this
In the dawn, embrace my trembling heart


Ah Will you stay with me
kaze ga sugisaru made
mou dare yori mo soba ni

Ah Will you stay with me
Until the wind has passed by
More than anyone else, stay close


Forever Love Forever Dream
kore ijou arukenai
Oh Tell me why Oh Tell me true
oshiete ikiru imi o

Forever Love Forever Dream
I can't walk any further than this
Oh Tell me why Oh Tell me true
Tell me the meaning of life


Forever Love Forever Dream
afureru namida no naka
kagayaku kisetsu ga eien ni kawaru made
Forever Love

Forever Love Forever Dream
Until inside of overflowing tears
The shimmering season changes into eternity
Forever Love ..

10:11 PM

Sunday, August 06, 2006

KITA KITA

definition: glittery

its a book. i read the summary. i shall summarize the summary into a shorter summary:

the sky is deep in colour but its see through
you can see the stars though its dark
the sea is deep but its see through
you can see the corals and fishes though its deep
the eyes are deep but its see through
see the appearance but also feelings

ok something that made me very angry today
this freakin china girl threw rubbish onto the mrt track! like WTH! i know spore is not your country but can't you respect the country? the people?? what's your phucking problem?
worst thing is she threw it just as i turned to look at her, then she gave me the oh-im-innocent look. i just glared at her and sent her running back to her mummy.
comon mom, teach your child to use a bin.

takuya made my day special. went to estar's house again to watch HERO SPECIAL (: i don't know why im falling in love with this guy that is soooo unreachable. takuya's not an eye candy no more... he's my love.
(BIG BIG SIGHH)



THE DIARY OF JANE
There's a fine line between love and hate
And I don't mind
Just let me say that I like that
I like that

Something's getting in my way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place in the diary of Jane
So tell me how it should be

Desperate, I will crawl
Waiting for so long
No love, there is no love
Die for anyone
What have I become

Something's getting in the way
Something's just about to break
I will try to find my place in the diary of Jane
As I burn another page
As I look the other way
I still try to find my place
In the diary of Jane

--breaking benjamin

10:37 PM

Friday, August 04, 2006

NAMIDA NO RIKUEN...

its namida no rikuen all over again..

requiem of tears.
--time for hope/wish?
a peaceful tear.
silent clouds sinking.

you'll never know, never understand.

10:21 PM

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

MONSTERS

we are the shaken
we are the monsters
underneath your bed
believe what you read
we are mistaken
we are the voices
inside your head
believe what you see



anyone who wants to fulfil my wishes are welcomed to do so.
i wish..........
to have a bottle of fireflies so that i can set them free
to go to japan to see takuya!
to scuba-dive, bungee jump and sky dive
to take a ride on....... a hot air balloon!
that i can be tall---er.
sleep for ONE WHOLE DAY
to have a telescope so that i can view my favourite--stars.
(actly i can just go to weikang's house and borrow his telescope X: )
that my dreams can come true
to have a rich husband but (i) still have a good career and not be a taitai
that i can be a famous designer

some very absurd wishes.

10:11 PM

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

OPTIMISM?

you know what?
i always feel very depressed after reading my dear ol blog. AHH!
i am a very sad person actually. i always try to be cheerful. yes.

so im gonna try (very hard) to write about happy stuff today even though:
-mr mao met my mother
-my mother wants me to quit db ):
-i slept during chinese and got scolded
-had some stupid lit test today and i dont know 80% of the answers
-i starved throughout strength gyming session
-the class got locked out during chinese lesson
-i couldn't buy my waffle due to the long queue and limited time
-bao hit my head oh-so-many times today
-carolina asked me to purchase sandwiches for her but WALKED OFF WITH THE SANDWICHES before the auntie knew what i was gonna pay for.
(speechless)
-i got violated by hong gu and carolina today
-they sprayed deodorant all over my body

-im listening to "somewhere only we know" (ultimate depression)

but on a lighter note,
at least im trying to be happy today (:

i learnt something new
kimi ga iru---you are here.

i accidentally found AH HEK's blog and BONN's blog, all thanks to vosh's blog and my curiosity.

i ate 2 red bean pau.

had fun with dbters in C1 after school. reminded me of the holidays and our failed study programme.

i had eye contact with errol in the library that almost made me faint(i bet my red face gave me away). there's just something about his eyes. i like his eyes. haha if only i can have those eyes. man, sometimes god is so unfair.

anw i thought about God and all his wonderful creation today! just a sudden -inmybubble- thing.im glad he created clouds and stars and fireflies...
and ME!

andd i thought about having a private beach and receiving bottled love notes from a secret admirer. LOL only bao and carolina wld understand.

30 July 2006 concert opens at Sapporo Dome!
http://blog67.fc2.com/s/shortage/file/popup_30july_3.jpg
takuya's photos (:


now im like carolina---
ALL SMILES.

7:13 PM

Monday, July 31, 2006

SOMEWHERE ONLY WE KNOW

10:16 PM

Monday, July 24, 2006

Right now...

ifeelsosmall.doiexist?idontfeelmyheartbeatinganymore..
itshurtingitsburningitscrushed.idontfeelmyheartanymore..
finallyifeltitburning,foroncemyheartishot.buthot..ineverknewitwouldbethisway.
neverthoughtitwouldhurtlikeathousandneedlespiercingbutnotkilling. itstortureiknowbutthisfeelingiwantedtoknowbutnow?
iquestionsomanythingsbutlove,whatislovewhatisitineverknew.
iguessseparationwaswhatignitedthisflameinmyheart,nowiknowhowitfeelstobealone.
thosebloodysongsbroughtbacksuchbittersweetmemoriesithurts.doyouknow?
howareyouthere?areyouwell?iaskthatohsofrequently.butaskingnoonebutmyself.
wakingupinthemiddleofthenighttofindmyeyeswetwithtears.tearsofwhat?
idontrmbrmydreamsbutirmbryou.idontrmbrthedetailsbutirmbryou.
idontrmbrtheirfacesbutirmbryou.idontrmbrme,yetirmbryou.imreallysadsad.
asitypeithinkicryiaskwhy.myheartishurting.idratherbelikedavyjonesnow.
howboutdiggingmyheartoutnowandplacingitinachest?butillbeabletofindit.
ihopetoplaceitinabigjarandletitsinktothebottomofthesea.icantfindit,iwonthurtanymore.
myheadhurtsmyeyeshurtimgoingtosleep.

...here comes the rain again, falling from the stars.
drenched in my pain again, becoming who we are.
as my memory rests but never forgets what i lost
wake me up when september ends.

8:47 PM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

MY LOVE

CAPTAIN JACK SPARROW.

8:10 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

CREME DE LA CREME

The most beautiful works



comes from...







...The most tortured minds.

9:59 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

im glad.

9:36 PM

Thursday, July 13, 2006

PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN

i almost forgot. but i didn't! ((:
so here it is...



PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN:
DEAD MAN'S CHEST


























this is my favourite.
obvious reason.

9:19 PM

SMELL?

i really wanna lose my sense of smell now.
something pungent is stenching up the whole of my house, and following me wherever i go.




DURIANS! drats.



its like a plague.


i have a fan in front of my face, trying hard to "blow" the smell away.
i assume it is trying hard.

my finger's hurting. cutting cardboard ain't fun at all. don't try.
hmm, on second thought,
go try.

9:13 PM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

VOL 1. REGRETS

ZIDANE. whats wrong with him? so he's just gonna end this last match of the world cup like that? im not blaming him or anything. it must've been difficult to walk away from the field like that. to leave not only the game, but the whole world, with eyes upon him. it was brave of him to be able to walk away. i wonder what made him so agitated. so agitated that he lost his cool, what happened to the calm and composed zidane?
sportsmanship is questionable.
but most importantly, i believe it is regretable, for him, for the team, for his country and for the world.

ok im really happy that italy won (cos i support them), but i was rooting for zidane (not his team) cos he's so charming on the field. he has this commanding air surrounding him, like he was born to lead, born to win. each kick, each pass, was confident and accurate.

been thinking about all these regrets over the past week. quite solemn due to much emo-ing too. i realise that i have a lot of regrets in my life.
regret-- always so vivid. always unforgettable, and forever so..

...heartwrenching.

i regret not studying for mye. i regret not holding on to some things. i regret not sticking to my principles. i regret not spending enough time with my friends and family. i regret...

i don't know what i regret. perhaps i just regret my whole life? perhaps.

i never knew how much regrets i had until i tried to think about them. its not just "oh ok i regret this that oh whatever.. its in the past." its seriously those regrets that makes one feel remorseful.

hmm i really don't know what im saying now. are these even fit to be my thoughts? BAH. im sick and tired of this world. im sick of feeling sick and being sick. im sick of sick people.

and im sick of not being able to bring across what im trying to bring across.
sometimes i feel that im trying to be someone else and someone else may be trying to be like me.
yeah its true "imitation is the best form of flattery", but imitation is also superficial and unreal and much hated by me. yet im trying to be somebody else. this thought irks me, it makes my stomach feel sick, my tongue sore as if somebody spilt acid on it.

sick people--
including me.

8:57 PM

name: jean
email: girlsjeans@hotmail.com
praise the lord!
nyDB

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